Learning to Relate To The Physical World... ;)

I've been coming to terms with a strong pattern in my life lately and today I would like to express a little about it here, if only to get it out of my head and onto "paper", perhaps clearing it to some degree in the process... ;)

It is about the challenges I personally encounter producing/creating/activating things here in the PHYSICAL world... Doing things in this physical reality has always seemed like a struggle to me in some way or another - whether it's roller-skating, woodworking or while in a morbidly obese body, even just walking...I have often felt challenged with things here in the physical plane, as if I'm moving through mud with all of these kinds of things... ;)
I have been particuarly aware of this pattern in recent months living here at our amazing, expanding "farm" in Ecuador, where I see other people around me every day working on creating buildings, managing huge gardens and other very hands-on tasks...I feel sooooooooooooo much immense gratitude and awe watching the guys here making whole houses with their hands, for example - these skills seem so vastly beyond me at this point and like my left-brain would explode trying to deal with all the details and measurements and preciseness that must go into their creations...I am so grateful that there are people who know how to do these things, as if it was down to me, I doubt that anything would have happened here on the land so far ;) LOL...
I notice that in this context, I am becoming more and more able and willing to delegate, which is key for me, otherwise all the ideas that I filter through from the ethers would likely never make it into the physical - for example, I am over-awed that I can ask someone else who is working in the garden to plant some pineapple tops and 20 minutes later, it's all DONE, instead of me just 'sitting' on the idea for days on end and never quite getting the task completed...


on June the 13th I enjoyed:

1 quart water
cup of mandarin/passionfruit juice
2 tbsp spirulina crunchies, 1 tbsp freeze-dried mushroom powders
mug of fresh horchata tea from our garden - WOW ;O
bowl of energy soup from the garden with nori/sauerkraut on the side, followed by a little hand-stirred yumpot of homemade almond butter, carob powder, stevia, orange oil = YUM :)
mug of fresh horchata tea from garden
more horchata ;)
water of a young coconut

I can imagine that this kind of slow and awkward relationship with the physical might sound very odd to some people, yet this is my current awareness of my patterns and I am really happy to have such clarity about this at this point - looking back I can see how this has been part of my reality since being a tiny child and how many frustrations and complications I have experienced over the years as a result of not really understanding my relationship with the physical - from weeping with intense sorrow as a 4-year-old while thinking I'd NEVER understand how to tie my shoelaces, to absolutely hopeless attempts to do things like ski, rollerblade, skate-board or play a musical instrument, to huge issues with trying to learn to drive a car, to massive struggles with creative projects like making wooden toys or attempting to single-handedly re-design a children's playground at one point (eeeeeeeek - NOT an ideal project choice for this gal ;) - my relationship to this physical reality has been a sticky one...

This pattern was also affirmed to me some months back in a very insightful Hand Analysis session with the wonderful Ronelle Coburn, who noted in my prints that I have a pretty strong disconnect between my very creative and clear-flowing mind/spirit and this physical reality - I was laughing out loud at Ronelle's description of how my life had likely been so far, for example "what do you MEAN I have to brush my teeth every day - can't I just do that once and it's over...?" With this kind of disjointed relationship to the physical, everything can feel like a challenge and like moving through mud...and I do literally remember as a child my huge resistance to the idea of "having to" brush my teeth every day... ;)


on June the 14th I appreciated:

1 quart water
cup of mandarin/passionfruit juice
2 cups coconut water blended with Elixir of the Lake
2 tsbp spirulina crunchies, 1 tbsp freeze-dried mushroom powder
bowl of energy soup from the garden with nori/sauerkraut/avocado on the side, followed by a little hand-stirred yumpot of homemade almond butter, carob powder, stevia, orange oil = YUM :)
mug of fresh horchata tea from garden
water of two young coconuts


on June the 15th I loved:

1 quart water
cup of mandarin/passionfruit juice
2 cups coconut water blended with Elixir of The Lake
a few fresh yummmmy tomatoes from the greenhouse, followed by a bowl of energy soup from the garden, with sauerkraut on the side, followed by "yumpot" of homemade almond butter, carob powder, stevia, orange oil = yummmmm :)
watr of two young coconuts
mug of fresh horchata tea

Please understand that this relationship to the physical has not meant that I am "clumsy" or unable to achieve anything on the physical plane - I can and have been able to create/execute various things in the physical over the years to some degree - it just tends to unfold at a veeeeeeeeeeery slow pace and is often a gruelling process for me (e.g. taking about seven years to learn how to ride a bike ;) ...negotiating the physical realm has definitely not seemed to be my forte thus far... ;)

So, I am feeling delighted to finally have some clarity about this pattern right now and am also excited to see how this may all transmute into a different pattern now that I have the light of awareness shining brightly on this part of my being - I choose to release any attachment to this old pattern and am excited to see if it might start to shift now - for example, with a group of women here in Vilcabamba, we have been discussing the idea of creating a "sewing co-op" - the patience, attention to detail and consistency of doing smthg like creating a piece of clothing is smthg that until now has felt totally beyond me, however, now I'm open to shifting this pattern, so...let's see what unfolds from here... :)))
For now, I am so grateful for this clarity...and especially for having other people around me who seem to have a much more immediate, practical and direct connection to the physical... ;)

What gifts has clarity brought YOU recently...??? ;)

All love and gratitude, 

The Stokes-Monarch. xxx 

Giving Value...

As I write this, I am on my way to Mexico and back to my beloved, all being well... :)
Today I packed down and cleaned house again for the...Xth...time this year. As I mentioned recently, I’ve been house–sitting at my parents’ place in England these last couple of weeks and simultaneously clearing out masses of physical STUFF from my past :) FUN :) On Thursday night we had an amazingly lovely raw girlie giveaway potluck and I happily released a great deal of old belongings (as well as very happily becoming the proud owner of some sweet new clothes from some yummy raw si*stars*). Today felt really momentous to me as I stood in my parents’ attic looking at the little pile of ‘stuff’ that remains now, that is connected to me. All stacked together, it fills a space of perhaps 3 large cardboard boxes sat next to each other...I stood and looked at it for quite a while, feeling intrigued to see SO clearly the stuff that is related to me. I don’t imagine many people often see all their physical belongings packed so clearly into a space together – things are usually spread out all over the place in houses and so on – I just found it really interesting to look at this pile of stuff and know that this is now all there is. Or at least, those are the things that are staying there in the UK for now ;) With me on this journey now I have clothes, computer, books and some foods...and well, perhaps when next I find myself in the UK and look at those objects remaining in the attic, I’ll find the impulse to release even more of them – we’ll see ;) For now I’m very happy with the point things have come to and am happy to be moving on again with such clarity...and in the direction of the Monarch and coconuts ;) lol...YAY :)

on November the 27th I had:

1 quart water
little mug of rooibus tea
2 cups veggie juice: celery, spinach, kale, carrot, Jersusalam artichoke, ginger
2 cups energy soup with flax crackers and okra, followed by goji/carob yumballs
3 cups water
2 cups veggie juice: celery, spinach, kale, carrot, Jersusalam artichoke, ginger
cup of ‘wild power’ tea
plate of raw potluck food: greeeen/sprout salad with dips, followed by chia/pomegranate pudding and chocolate treats – yummmm :)
cup of rooibus tea
3 cups water

OooOooooo, here’s a yummy little news nugget I saw recently in Brighton’s Wave magazine: the UK Environment Agency has created a help pack to encourage and help people in London to create green roofs on buildings. LOVE IT :) I first consciously encountered green/living roofs when I lived at the Centre for Alternative Technology (CAT) in Wales. For anyone who isn’t familiar with them, it basically means creating a living, breathing, thriving, grassy community on your rooftop :) It’s a way of adding masses of extra greeeeeen space into communities, more space for bugs and other tiny people to live and commune, more places to lay in the grass in the sun, more insulation for buildings, more space for pretty flowers to grow and so on...yummy. For more info on creating such a space, visit the Environment Agency site here:
www.environment–agency.gov.uk/greenroofs
We would LOVE to see pictures of your thriving green roofs, if you have any to share ;)


on November the 28th I had:

1 quart water
little mug of rooibus tea
2 cups energy soup with crackers on the side, followed by a little leftover goji/pomegranate pudding
little mug of rooibus tea
1 quart water
1 quart veggie juice – celery, cucumber, kale, fennel, ginger, endive, carrot
2 fuyu persimmons
2 cups water

on November the 29th I had:

1 quart water
little mug of rooibus tea
1.5 quarts veggie juice: celery, cucumber, kale, fennel, ginger, endive, carrot
1 tsp wheatgrass powder
mug of rooibus tea
1.5 cups greeeen veggie juice
yummy raw meal at Manna in Brighton – raw ‘tortilla’ with salad & guacamole, followed by raw chocolate cake and ice cream – YUMM
3 cups water


OOoOooooo, did you hear the interview Kevin Gianni recently put up with Steve Pavlina? LOVE IT :) Awwwwww, two such kind, open–hearted, healthy, loving men sharing an hour’s discussion on self–development and finding/enjoying your life path – I thought it was very yummy...and SO insightful too. I just LOVE the way Steve’s logic seems to work, while at the same time his heart seems totally engaged. He is so SO clear – it’s like truth, simplicity and clarity seem to just effortlessly flow through him and out into the world... He has some outstanding info to share in this interview about offering VALUE to other people, while doing smthg that you love. I think that’s so beautiful...it’s not abt focusing on how to make MONEY from doing smthg you love – rather how to offer true VALUE to other people, then the money just flows, like any energy...I love that...you can listen to the interview on Kevin’s site HERE. THANKS, guys, for sharing this lovely info... Steve just finished a 30–Day Juice Feast too – WOW – go Steve :) He had a pretty intense journey with it, mostly emotionally – you can read his recent summary of that on his blog HERE.
ENJOY :)
All love,
Angela. xxx