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The Absurd Dance of Compulsion
Before I started to work on my emotional transformation, my compulsive behaviour with food was quite remarkable. For example, before Christmas in Iceland (where I used to live), stores usually put out cookies, cakes and candy for customers to enjoy. I would find myself cycling all over the city, from store to store, just to eat the treats on offer. I didn’t actually need anything in the stores, yet in the midst of a cold Icelandic winter, I was willing to bicycle through ice and snow for hours just to eat ‘treats’. Similarly, I used to love going to the bank in Iceland, as they give free hot chocolate. Whenever my partner at the time would say he was going to the bank, I’d excitedly ask, ‘Can I come?’, to his bemusement. I was in the grip of compulsion and food was 
My compulsive behaviour with food probably reached its peak of insanity when I began working in a mainstream café where the staff were permitted to eat whatever they wanted, whenever they wanted…an overeater’s paradise and worst nightmare, rolled into one. Every day I worked there, I ate much more than I physically needed to, time and time again finding myself eating things that caused me physical pain and emotional turmoil. Bread, ice cream, cakes, chips…
For weeks at a time I’d battle my compulsion to overeat, stuffing lump after lump of cake into my mouth. At times, my willpower to stop would win over and I’d be able to halt the madness for some days or even weeks. Overall, however, I was really out of balance. Looking back, I can see how I treated my body like a waste disposal system. I had no sense of honouring my self or making healthy choices about what I consumed. I couldn’t bear to see food ‘go to waste’, so on top of my own multiple meals, I would gobble down leftovers from customers’ plates. It seems insane now, but that was my reality then.
I was actually very ill with a candida overgrowth at that point and ironically, though I’d taken myself off all fruit ‘for health reasons’, I was simultaneously filling myself compulsively with toxic refined sugars. Such is the absurd ‘logic’ of compulsion. I felt very ashamed, hiding my binges from co-workers and it took me a long time to find the courage to even tell my partner about what I was doing.
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on November the 7th I had:
1.5 quarts water
1 quart veggie juice: celery, cucumber, Jerusalem artichoke, endive, fennel, spinach, kale, carrot, ginger
2 cups energy soup with okra on the side, followed by a little hand-blended yumpot of hazelnut butter with lucuma powder, buckwheaties, maca powder and carob powder
3 cups water
2 cups veggie juice: celery, cucumber, Jerusalem artichoke, endive, fennel, spinach, kale, carrot, ginger
2 GORGEOUS persimmons
bowl of chia/pomegranate pudding, soaked in cinnamon/almond milk – YUMMMMMMMMMMMMM :)
2 cups water
Mr Monarch has a novel request. He’s interested to know if there’s anyone out there who would be interested to drive his car some day in the coming week from Brighton, 
on November the 8th I had:
1.5 quarts water
shot of wheatgrass juice
bowl of Shellbel’s grawnola with almond/pumpkin seed milk
mug of rooibus tea
3 cups water
1.5 cups greeeeeeen veggie juice: celery, cucumber, kale, spinach, fennel, endive, ginger, lime
3 little new “yumballs” made by the Monarch using soaked goji berries, yacon powder, stevia, maca and brazil nut butter – YUM
2 cups water
I LOVE this hilarious YouTube video sent to us recently via our friend John Roulac of Nutiva. It’s a tongue-in-cheek song called ‘The Man from Marin’ sung by ‘Vir McCoy’ and his two charming chorus girls...lots of raw food references...very amusing methinks ;) So animated, great energy flowing – thanks for sharing, guys :) Check it out at this link: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GQUUFg6p0aE
ENJOY,
All love, bright blessings and deeeeeep breaths into the depths...
Angela. xxx
Saturday, 8 November 2008
Compulsion
Thursday, 18 September 2008
Greens and Salads...
Quite a few of you have been writing in to ask about E3 Live, after I was drinking so much of it recently ;)
Well, simply put, it's an algae collected from Klamath Lake. E3 Live is a freshly frozen product: the algae is collected, bottled, frozen and shipped out to customers with cold packs...
Here's what I like about it: it’s nutrient-packed, a quick way to get smthg greeeeeen into your body without making veggie juice ;) (Can be great for any ‘reluctant
People usually keep the bottle of E3 Live in their freezer, then transfer it to the fridge, let it defrost for a while, pour off enough of the defrosted liquid to drink for the next few days and replace the rest in the freezer for later (OR: defrost the whole thing, pour it out into ice cube trays and refreeze, so that whenever you want, you can pop out a little chunk of chlorophyll-rich goodness ;). That’s my quick summary - you can read all about E3 Live on our site HERE.
on September the 16th I had:
1 quart water
mug of blackberry tea
3 cups green juice: cucumber, celery, ginger, lime with a handful of fresh leafy greens from the garden: kale, lettuces, chard, nettles, dandelion, mint
2 cups ‘energy soup’ with coconut chips stirred in, followed by a little bowl of sweet yum: hazelnut butter, lucuma, maca and carob powders hand-blended with water
3 cups water
glass of creamy green smoothie: almond milk, lucuma, maca, vitamineral green, vanilla, cinammon, with a square of goji-lemon-chocolate fudge – WOW :)
2 cups water
mug of ‘choco’ tea
1 cup water
MmmMmmmmm, here’s an interesting possible opportunity for someone out there...would you LOVE to take a road trip soon, from Michigan to California...? Mr. Monarch is on the lookout for someone who would be excited to drive his Rav4 from Brighton, Michi
on September the 17th I had:
1 quart water
3 cups green juice: cucumber, celery, handful of fresh greens from the garden, ginger, lime
2 cups ‘energy soup’ with coconut chips stirred in, followed by a little bowl of sweet yum: hazelnut butter, lucuma, maca and carob powders hand-blended with water
3 cups water
2 cups green juice: cucumber, celery, followed by another cup of mystery green juice ;)
6 gorgeous Italian plums straight from the tree
2 cups water
on September the 18th I had:
1 quart water
2 cups green juice: cucumber, celery, handful of fresh greens from the garden, ginger, lime
shot of peagreens juice – WOW ;)
jar of creamy green smoothie at Café Bliss: almond milk, lucuma, maca, vitamineral green, vanilla, cinammon, with a spirulina bliss ball on the side
6 fresh plums from the tree
2 cups water
2 teaspoons bee pollen
2 cups veggie juice: cucumber, celery, carrots, kale, romaine lettuce, ginger
2 cups ‘energy soup’ with coconut chips stirred in, followed by a little bowl of sweet yum: hazelnut butter, lucuma, maca and carob powders hand-blended with water
mug of sweet/spicy tea
2 cups water
WOW – I have just been watching a comedian on You Tube who had me laughing so hard I was crying...his name is Jim Gaffigan and I was just introduced to him this evening by the uber-delicious Rainosheks, who I have the divine fortune to be visiting at the moment in the Gulf Islands... I know nothing more abt Mr. Gaffigan other than that I find his musings on modern food very very amusing – below is a clip of him talking about salad. Check out his other videos on cake, vegetarians, lactose intolerance and...cinnabons...lol...love it – ENJOY :)
Angelalalaalalalalalalalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. xxx
